for the first time in my my life, i am sad that i have not had  a child. i am 4 1 years olfd. .. i will not be a biological mother And yet, here I am. The sum total of all the experiences that have gone 

before, both mine and the others that have come before me. In this, the 

best*worst*most*exciting*boring*whatever*the*hell time of my life. I am 

full of cracks and magic and sand. And here am I. And here you are. And here

we all are, collectively and singularly.. And here we go...