The aching in my chest seems to forever make me sink a little more all i want to do is float but the boat and vests are just barely out of reach yet still in sight and im soaking wet. In the way my tears are the only thing making up this ocean. Im fighting so hard to learn to swim and on the sunny days i can but on the stormy days oh god do the hurricanes come, without warning, without meaning. Until the sun sets and rises the next day, like i have been floating the whole time, like the sinking never happened.

And all i want to do is close my eyes.