again i wake to this indifferent sky---these cloned days, blinding white. 

the waking and waking annd waking to wake...

to settle back into that throbbing night,

the androgynous dark. 

"tear me asunder.

           it stamps and it stamps and it stamps."

these ambivalent years, i wake to this--and how many more?

know you through all the swells and draining 

of my heavy gangrene heart. 

skeletal fingers reaching out----i am embraced by idle mist. the years, the hours...

fake forward through grey and assertive atmosphere.